December 2011
1 post
I wish
I felt pretty.
I was skinny.
I made someone proud.
I was confident.
I was happy.
I wasn’t lonely all the damn time.
I knew what I wanted to do with my life.
I wish and I wish and they never come true. I’m just sleep walking through life nothing else.
August 2011
1 post
Thanks
to those who came and visited me at the bbq that my parents threw for my sisters and I…. NOT. I thought maybe this vacation to Virginia would be a great thing but tonight has proved me wrong. Look I understand that life doesn’t stop when I come back to visit and all but seriously… don’t say you are going to come over and hang out with me and then flake out. I am so...
July 2011
10 posts
Life
Has really been looking up for me lately! I woke up a few weeks ago and realized that I was beautiful. Crazy I know but I like it that way. My husband is happy and I am too. :)
Stressed
Today was a good day but now deadlines for school are sneaking up and I am getting real stressed. I know I bring this on myself. I wish I knew how to manage everything. My house is going to shit and deadlines are approaching and I still want to go out and workout and take care of myself. Ugh when is this all going to get easier. I wish I could sing the state farm jingle and hey a bachelors degree...
Happy Fourth of July everyone! I have been having a treat day so far I hope you all are too! Take a moment to think all the selfless men and women who fight for our country and our freedom! Until next time. KJ
Sad day
So today wasn’t the greatest. I woke up in a horrible mood and struggled with it all day long. I was just sad and missed my husband a ton. My horrible body image problem get in the way today too. I am growing impatient and want to feel better. I just want to be comfortable in my own skin and I don’t think that is to much to ask. Being a military wife is definitely not easy. All lot or sacrifices...
I want to feel confident. I want to feel pretty. Sometimes I feel like my husband could do so much better then me. Ugh. I really need to get this shit under control. I’m tired of waking up every morning wondering what it would be like to feel completely confident in myself. So gloom and down at this moment. I just wanna cry. It sucks. Until next time. Kirstie J
Beautiful day
Today is such a beautiful day here in AK. I am having some friends over tonight. Should be a great time. My husband would enjoy it if he were here I am sure. He would be the one playing and wrestling with he kiddies. He is going to be a great father one day when we have some of our own. Gosh I miss him so much. Chao! Until next time KJ.
Lonely nights
So this is my first post on this blog. I guess I should start with my name and a little about myself. That’s the typical thing to do haha. Well my name is Kirstie. I am 21 years old, married, and I am currently living in Anchorage AK. I attend University of Alaska Anchorage and am majoring in Psychology. My husband is currently deployed. He serves in the United States Army and I am very...